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Face in the crowd

Jul 28

I know that you’re never gonna’ be just a face in the crowd.. (Never stop looking at me)
I saw a movie on TV yesterday. and I swear to god it felt like I was watching my life on repeat.
and it also felt like I got a sneakpeak of what is to come. but I’m not sure witch part I played.
It made me feel sick. I don’t really know why.
If you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking

I think I lack some emotions.. most of the time it feels like someone has put a filter or
something on my emotions. or just lowered the opacity. it al feels so blurry. Usually
I lack emotions like sympathy and empathy. I understands these feelings very well,
but I can’t feel them. It disturbs me. I can still feel guilt though.
But it doesn’t help. it just makes me feel like the worst person in the world.
was I always this messed up..?

Doh, now I did it again. filling my blog with stupid thoughts. Anyway,

“Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end.”

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Funk-a-delic

Jul 25

Posted by rikku in Graphic design | No Comments

Hello, what in the world is up! It has rained all day, so I’ve stayed inside and studied.
But oh do I love this course I’m taking. I get to draw all day!
So today I finished my character design that was my assignment for this week.
As well as the PROP assignment I posted here before, my character design is
also very steampunk-inspired. I didn’t have much time left to do the background though,
so it is more of a speed-painting. But I was more interested in getting the right feeling
for the picture instead of drawing a very detailed background.

I know the perspective is a bit off for the PROP, but I didn’t have time to draw a new one so… whatever!

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Ambitions

Jul 22

Posted by rikku in Fashion, Me | 5 Comments

Hello again. I thought I’d post some more pictures of my dreads. Since they’ll probably be gone soon. Summer is also coming to an end. makes me sad. I don’t want it to end. Also, I got in to a design program. but… it’s in Malmö. so if I want to go there, I have to move to Malmö. and I need to decide soon. I don’t know if I want to go or not.. I hate deciding… I don’t want to make the wrong choises.. can’t somebody just tell me what’s right…

And if somebody’s going to make it
then this somebody ought to be you
And I keep telling my reflection
Ambitions are already starting to fade

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Divine Moments Of Truth

Jul 20

Posted by rikku in Fashion, Me | 2 Comments

Hello, I’m back from Arvikafestivalen! It was messy. It rained almost all the time, there was mud everywhere and everyone was totally wasted. but I had a great time. I saw a lot of bands I wanted to see, and discovered a lot of new ones.

Anyway, I thought I’d post an outfit since I haven’t done that for a while.

I like my dreads. But I have to dye my hair again soon, so I guess they’ll have to come off eventually…

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Allting kommer bli bra till slut

Jul 11

Posted by rikku in Graphic design | 3 Comments

Du ska se att allting ordnar sig.
Ok so I’m off to Arvikafestivalen so I’ll be away for a week or so.
Peppar Den Svenska Björnstammen, Maskinen, Regina Spektor, and lots more!

Also I figured I’d post some things I’ve been woring on for my summer course in Concept Art.
Moodboard assignment for the female protagonist.

Prop assignment. I made a hoverbike.

I wonder if love is like lightning..?

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Dreadhead

Jul 7

Posted by rikku in Me | 6 Comments

Why can’t the universe give me a break?
Maybe ’cause I don’t deserve it…
Everything is upside down and inside out.
I don’t know what’s right or wrong anymore.
I don’t know anything. I’m lost.
I deleted my facebook account again.
it feels necessary. it doesn’t feel right, but it feels necessary.

Oh and I have dreads now. only synthetic though. but I like ‘em.

I’m tumbling. I’m falling upside down. I think I’m doing the right thing. Bur why does it feel so wrong?

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Cupcake Paintings

Jul 6

Posted by rikku in Graphic design | 5 Comments

Hello, I’m sorry for not updating my blog for a while >_>
I’ve been away for some time to the great woods of Värmland! ….. or.. well..
anyway, it was nice. I needed some vacation.
While I was there I finished some comissions: 3 cupcake paintings.
I made them with spray paint, acrylic paint and markers.

These paintings are already sold, but I do take comissions.
If you are interested in some paintings, please let me know.

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The Saltwater Room

Jun 19

Posted by rikku in Graphic design, Interior design | 3 Comments

Today I did some more perspective exercises. Although I should probably do
some photoshop exercises as well… But I really wanted to draw a sketch of my
new room! I haven’t gotten a chance to decorate it yet, cause I don’t have any walls…
tehee.. but soon! Also, I’ll help my mum decorate her room. I’ll try to get some
pictures of our apartment as soon as possible! but we haven’t really moved in yet…
anyway, here’s what my room will look like! (hopefully…)

I love owls <3

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Let’s fly away to our rave paradise

Jun 18

Posted by rikku in Fashion, Graphic design, Me | 3 Comments

Ok, so, sorry about the last post. I just wanted to get some things out of my system.
or… whatever. I don’t know. I’m feeling better now I think. In swedish we call it “peppen”.
Today I’ve danced ITG (In The Groove) all day! And then I’ve listened to Happy Hardcore.
I just want to keep dancing. I feel like daning all night long. Also, I’m making dreads.
I think I’ll go to a festival soon, and I don’t want to have to style my hair when I’ll be
dirty as hell all day long, so I figured.. hey, dreads! Not real ones though, only synthetic.
I’ve had those before. I did a quick sketch today of what it could look like

The last time I had blonde dreads I looked like this..

But this time I’ll try to make them look more “natural”, kinda…
Come to me and take my hands let’s get up in the sky to the paradise of rave!

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Just kiss me in the rain

Jun 15

Posted by rikku in Me | 5 Comments

while I still believe in love…

Jag blir så arg. Varför är det okej att leka med mina känslor?
Jag vet att det var alkoholen som talade, jag vet att du inte tänker, men det svider likförbaskat.
Vrid om kniven du, gör det bara.
So you want me to bleed for you when my wounds finally started to heal?
Kan inte hon flytta hit snart, så du har någon annan att leka med.
Jag kan ändå inte tävla mot henne. Jag tänker inte ens försöka.
För jag betyder ingenting. Jag är värdelös. Ett objekt. Utbytbar…

Jag blir så trött. Trött på alla som dömer. Det känns så.
“suck, nu går erika och gör något dumt igen”. Ingen frågar ens hur det är.
Jag vet ju så väl. Jag vet att jag gör fel val, tar de sämsta vägarna,
trasslar in mig i mörkret, men jag kan inte rå för det.
Min hjärna skriker så högt den kan att “SLUTA SLUTA SLUTA,
DU VET ATT DET ÄR FEL, DU VET HUR ONT DET GÖR, SLUTA FUCKA UPP”,
men jag kan inte rå för det. Kan inte röra en muskel. Paralyserad.
Som om mitt medvetande försvann iväg till en annan värld.
Sen hinner verkligheten ikapp som ett hårt slag i magen. Och man faller. Lika hårt som tårarna.
So you want me to cry for you when I smile, when my tears just dried?

Jag vet att det är dumt. Jag vet att jag bara är fånig. Men jag känner mig så hjälplös.
You’re the sharp teethed tiger and I’m the little tiny squeaking mouse in your mouth.

Just kiss me in the rain, while I still believe in love

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Rikkus blog

Face in the crowd

Funk-a-delic

Ambitions

Divine Moments Of Truth

Allting kommer bli bra till slut

Dreadhead

Cupcake Paintings

The Saltwater Room

Let’s fly away to our rave paradise

Just kiss me in the rain

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