From the monthly archives: "March 2010"

A Drop Filled With Memories

By On · 6 Comments

Hello world! I’ve been editing my blog a bit. Is that good or bad? What do you think?
Also, my older blog posts are now visible again. I don’t know why I did that, I just felt like it.
They’re all in swedish though.

Yesterday was nice. A cute boy made me breakfast in bed. Then he gave me cheese, crackers, wine and a bath. He’s spoiling me. But it’s nice. I wish I could be just as nice… I want to be the best I can be. He deserves it. But it’s hard when you’re feeling so goddamn worthless all the time. I’m trying not to. (but you stole the last ounce of confidence I had left..)
Anyway, I’m batman!

blackgraybatman

Also, I got my PS3 back, so now I can play FF XIII all the time <3

Fireflies

By On · 4 Comments

I just can’t get enough of Owl City! I want a cute piano boy to play “fireflies” for me all day long.

Yesterday I could see the ground for the first time in months! (#welcometoSweden…) And today it’s snowing again. But even so, I think I’m feeling better. I’m longing for that day, just one whole day when I won’t feel sad (and don’t have to mess up my make-up) I hope it will come soon. Next weekend I think I’ll go to a rave and dance all night long!

The Saltwater Room

By On · Add Comment

(So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?)

Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone,
I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home,
why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling,
do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time

St Patrick’s Day

By On · 2 Comments

Hello world and Happy St Patrick’s Day! I made some mini-cupcake bites to celebrate! They have the wrong shade of green though.. but anyway. If you want to make your own cake bites, you can check out Bakerella’s blog. She has a lot of great recipes! Now let’s party!

minicupcakes

Yeah Unicorns!

By On · 1 Comment

Hello world! what up? I was supposed to write something meaningful here.. but I guess I lost it. I’ve been looping the same song for too long! My brain is all gooey! I’m guessing you’ve all played the Unicorn game.. so.. Erasure – Always It gets to you..! anyway.

I think I’m starting to feel better. sometimes. I’m sick of people laughing at me for feeling sad. But it’s nice to be able to amuse people I guess….. or not. Didn’t people stop talking about each other behind their back in like the 9th grade or something? Don’t we ever grow up? Maybe we don’t… anyway, I know I’m not supposed to care about it. I just do, sometimes, anyway.. There are far worse things going on in the world.

Speaking about not-so-bad-things going on in the world.. Tomorrow we’re going to celebrate Saint Patrick’s Day! I feel like making something sweet. Like cupcakes! Mini-Cupcakes! I used to make them all the time.

mini cupcakes

Inspired by the amazing Bakerella! You can find lots of recipes how to make them there :)

Here Comes The Sun

By On · 4 Comments

So, here I am again. Listening to “Here Comes The Sun”, and thinking about Jens again. like always. I don’t really know what kind of thoughts they are though. They tend to slip through my fingers before I get a chance to pin them down with words. Nothing feels real anymore. (kan inte allting bara sluta loopa snart..? jag är fast i en snedtripp som vägrar sluta..)

And She fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
As she goes in a store
With a thought she has caught
By a thread
She pays for the bread
And She goes…
Nobody knows

Last night I had nightmares again. I don’t think I’m supposed to sleep. But this morning a cute boy made me breakfast in bed. I just wish I could feel more happy about it. I don’t even remember why I’m sad or why I’m happy anymore. I just accept it. I don’t know why. The world is a beautiful but oh so horrible place. I don’t know why. I Just accept it.

Brand New Hero

By On · 13 Comments

Ok, I know everything isn’t hopeless. it’s not pointless. but I’ve been fooling myself too many times now. Where did all my feelings go? Anyway. I went shopping the other day, and it made me feel a lot better! just like therapy. I don’t have any money left though.. oh well.

glam

  • Jacket – Fishbone – New Yorker
  • Leopard shirt – Fishbone – New Yorker
  • Belt – New Yorker
  • Jeans – BikBok
  • Shoes – Din Sko

Glamrock, någon?