I just can’t get enough of Owl City! I want a cute piano boy to play “fireflies” for me all day long.

Yesterday I could see the ground for the first time in months! (#welcometoSweden…) And today it’s snowing again. But even so, I think I’m feeling better. I’m longing for that day, just one whole day when I won’t feel sad (and don’t have to mess up my make-up) I hope it will come soon. Next weekend I think I’ll go to a rave and dance all night long!

(So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?)

Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone,
I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home,
why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling,
do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time

So, here I am again. Listening to “Here Comes The Sun”, and thinking about Jens again. like always. I don’t really know what kind of thoughts they are though. They tend to slip through my fingers before I get a chance to pin them down with words. Nothing feels real anymore. (kan inte allting bara sluta loopa snart..? jag är fast i en snedtripp som vägrar sluta..)

And She fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
As she goes in a store
With a thought she has caught
By a thread
She pays for the bread
And She goes…
Nobody knows

Last night I had nightmares again. I don’t think I’m supposed to sleep. But this morning a cute boy made me breakfast in bed. I just wish I could feel more happy about it. I don’t even remember why I’m sad or why I’m happy anymore. I just accept it. I don’t know why. The world is a beautiful but oh so horrible place. I don’t know why. I Just accept it.