Archive for July, 2010

Jag ligger kvar här, så blir nog allting bra…

Jul 31

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Okay, so, I decided not to go to Malmö this fall after all. I still feel like going somewhere, but I don’t think I’m ready yet. It just occured to me that, if I go away to a place where I don’t know anyone and nobody knows me, sure it would be a new start and all that and it would probably be a great experience, but… if something were to happen, something bad, then I would have to go through that all alone. And I don’t know if I could do that. And that scares me. I hate being scared. I don’t want to, but I’m just too weak to not be scared. I don’t want to hide in my room all day, but I’m too afraid to go outside. Sometimes I hate being a little girl… I hate not being able to defend myself… I’m pathetic.
Jag ligger kvar här, så blir nog allting bra…

Oh well enough complaining. Sorry about that. I thought I’d upload
some pictures from my trip to Japan earlier this year. I miss it so much!

(Sorry Linnea if you’re reading this, I stole your pictures 8)

Face in the crowd

Jul 28

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I know that you’re never gonna’ be just a face in the crowd.. (Never stop looking at me)
I saw a movie on TV yesterday. and I swear to god it felt like I was watching my life on repeat.
and it also felt like I got a sneakpeak of what is to come. but I’m not sure witch part I played.
It made me feel sick. I don’t really know why.
If you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking

I think I lack some emotions.. most of the time it feels like someone has put a filter or
something on my emotions. or just lowered the opacity. it al feels so blurry. Usually
I lack emotions like sympathy and empathy. I understands these feelings very well,
but I can’t feel them. It disturbs me. I can still feel guilt though.
But it doesn’t help. it just makes me feel like the worst person in the world.
was I always this messed up..?

Doh, now I did it again. filling my blog with stupid thoughts. Anyway,

“Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end.”

Funk-a-delic

Jul 25

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Hello, what in the world is up! It has rained all day, so I’ve stayed inside and studied.
But oh do I love this course I’m taking. I get to draw all day!
So today I finished my character design that was my assignment for this week.
As well as the PROP assignment I posted here before, my character design is
also very steampunk-inspired. I didn’t have much time left to do the background though,
so it is more of a speed-painting. But I was more interested in getting the right feeling
for the picture instead of drawing a very detailed background.

I know the perspective is a bit off for the PROP, but I didn’t have time to draw a new one so… whatever!

Ambitions

Jul 22

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Hello again. I thought I’d post some more pictures of my dreads. Since they’ll probably be gone soon. Summer is also coming to an end. makes me sad. I don’t want it to end. Also, I got in to a design program. but… it’s in Malmö. so if I want to go there, I have to move to Malmö. and I need to decide soon. I don’t know if I want to go or not.. I hate deciding… I don’t want to make the wrong choises.. can’t somebody just tell me what’s right…

And if somebody’s going to make it
then this somebody ought to be you
And I keep telling my reflection
Ambitions are already starting to fade

Divine Moments Of Truth

Jul 20

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Hello, I’m back from Arvikafestivalen! It was messy. It rained almost all the time, there was mud everywhere and everyone was totally wasted. but I had a great time. I saw a lot of bands I wanted to see, and discovered a lot of new ones.

Anyway, I thought I’d post an outfit since I haven’t done that for a while.

I like my dreads. But I have to dye my hair again soon, so I guess they’ll have to come off eventually…

Allting kommer bli bra till slut

Jul 11

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Du ska se att allting ordnar sig.
Ok so I’m off to Arvikafestivalen so I’ll be away for a week or so.
Peppar Den Svenska Björnstammen, Maskinen, Regina Spektor, and lots more!

Also I figured I’d post some things I’ve been woring on for my summer course in Concept Art.
Moodboard assignment for the female protagonist.

Prop assignment. I made a hoverbike.

I wonder if love is like lightning..?

Dreadhead

Jul 7

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Why can’t the universe give me a break?
Maybe ’cause I don’t deserve it…
Everything is upside down and inside out.
I don’t know what’s right or wrong anymore.
I don’t know anything. I’m lost.
I deleted my facebook account again.
it feels necessary. it doesn’t feel right, but it feels necessary.

Oh and I have dreads now. only synthetic though. but I like ‘em.

I’m tumbling. I’m falling upside down. I think I’m doing the right thing. Bur why does it feel so wrong?

Cupcake Paintings

Jul 6

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Hello, I’m sorry for not updating my blog for a while >_>
I’ve been away for some time to the great woods of Värmland! ….. or.. well..
anyway, it was nice. I needed some vacation.
While I was there I finished some comissions: 3 cupcake paintings.
I made them with spray paint, acrylic paint and markers.

These paintings are already sold, but I do take comissions.
If you are interested in some paintings, please let me know.