I know that you’re never gonna’ be just a face in the crowd.. (Never stop looking at me)
I saw a movie on TV yesterday. and I swear to god it felt like I was watching my life on repeat.
and it also felt like I got a sneakpeak of what is to come. but I’m not sure witch part I played.
It made me feel sick. I don’t really know why.
If you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking

I think I lack some emotions.. most of the time it feels like someone has put a filter or
something on my emotions. or just lowered the opacity. it al feels so blurry. Usually
I lack emotions like sympathy and empathy. I understands these feelings very well,
but I can’t feel them. It disturbs me. I can still feel guilt though.
But it doesn’t help. it just makes me feel like the worst person in the world.
was I always this messed up..?

Doh, now I did it again. filling my blog with stupid thoughts. Anyway,

“Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end.”

Why can’t the universe give me a break?
Maybe ’cause I don’t deserve it…
Everything is upside down and inside out.
I don’t know what’s right or wrong anymore.
I don’t know anything. I’m lost.
I deleted my facebook account again.
it feels necessary. it doesn’t feel right, but it feels necessary.

Oh and I have dreads now. only synthetic though. but I like ‘em.

I’m tumbling. I’m falling upside down. I think I’m doing the right thing. Bur why does it feel so wrong?