Rikkus blog

King of Africa

rikku — Sat, 28 Aug 2010 10:31:12 +0000

Hello. Sorry about this post. I haven’t been feeling great lately.
But today I’m going to Tunisia! I’ll be gone for a week or so.
Hopefully it will be great. I need a vacation. I don’t know if I
will have access to internet while I’m there (probably not) so
I won’t be updating my blog. But I’ll tell you all about it when
I get home! And also, I have a suiting soundtrack for my trip:

Douster – King of Africa

Brb – going to Africa!

A Negro Cop Paté

rikku — Sat, 28 Aug 2010 10:30:03 +0000

Hello. Yesterday I worked for Orange Pop Cafe (OPC)
at a party in the forest. We were supposed to be very “kawaii”
… ehm.. yeah. so. here’s a pic!

Bittersweet Symphony

rikku — Sat, 21 Aug 2010 09:09:03 +0000

Ok so… I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m a demon. A demon of destruction. Everything I touch dies. I just want to hide from the world. Maybe I’ll go back to that place between sleep and death. I can’t breathe here anyway. I JUST WANT TO GET AWAY. how do you run from your own shadow..? it always catches up with you sooner or later…

It feels like I’m made of hate. Pure hate. I hate people. I hate the buss driver who shut the door in my face, and I hate people laughing at me in the street. I hate kids who kick their classmates when they’re on the ground, I hate people who break your dreams, and I hate rapists lurking in the shadows. And I hate guys who rape their friends on an open street in bright daylight, and I hate girls who rape their own souls everyday with scissors and knives. I hate those who teach kids to use guns and kill their classmates. But most of all I hate myself. The invisible scars are long gone, but it’s hurting like crazy and I just want to peel my whole skin off because it’s so fake I don’t even know if it’s mine anymore.

I got a new haircut by the way. and I look ridiculous.. I hate being ugly. ‘Cause I really don’t got much personality. I’m a terrible person. If I had good looks, it wouldn’t matter that much. Perhaps it could even make me stop whining? who knows..

PEPPIGT INLÄGG DET BLEV NU DÅ.

a poem for terrible people

rikku — Wed, 18 Aug 2010 07:46:12 +0000

once there was a girl who told people that she was not terrible.
But who am I kidding?

I’m tired. I want to go back to that place between sleep and dead.
You can’t save me. I don’t want to be saved. But when you lie
there next to me on the sofa, almost awake, almost asleep,
there is no other place in the world I’d rather be.
You’re my best friend and I could never leave you.

“So here’s my heart, and here’s my mouth
And I can’t help if things come out’
Cause there are words I want to shout
But maybe I’ll stay low”

Livingroom

rikku — Sat, 14 Aug 2010 14:36:39 +0000

I took some pictures of our (me and moms’) living room.
It’s not really done yet, but here are some close-ups.
We decited to go with a combination of country and
marine-theme. I’m gonna’ post more pictures soon,
but we need to put up some shelfs and stuff first.
Also, I played around with some photoshop actions
that I downloaded from deviantart.

Now we’re gonna’ go celebrate my moms birthday.

Golden Brown

rikku — Fri, 13 Aug 2010 17:28:21 +0000

Hello. It’s been a while since I last posted here. I’ve been busy.
Also, Sofia is back from Japan! I’ve missed her so much!
And Jens is back from Ungern. I’ve missed him too.
(I know you might think that’s weird but really, it’s not)
and I get to hear about Sofias’ great adventures in Japan. <3
Also, I have brown hair now. it need some rest from all bleaching and stuff.

I also uploaded this look on lookbook.

Steampunk slums in Midgar

rikku — Sat, 07 Aug 2010 19:51:02 +0000

Hello, today I’ve studied a lot. since I’ve been ill almost all week I haven’t
had the strength to study, but today I finally managed to throw something
together. I have an assigntment due to monday. We’re supposed to draw
environtments. I chose to do a steampunk inspired city outcast in the desert.
also a good place for a hideout for the protagonists. I did two versions, one
at dusk/night and one at dawn/day. Speedpaintings done in less than 2 hours.
I would have done more detailed drawings but since I’ve been ill I just had to
throw something together quick.

Someone said it looks like “steampunk slums in midgar”
I think so too :D

She will be loved

rikku — Thu, 05 Aug 2010 10:00:17 +0000

Oops, I have no dreads anymore! I decided to take them out.
But I think I’ll do new ones this fall. maybe! Also, I’ve booked a
trip to Tunisia in less than a month. I desperately need to go
somewhere, and this was a pretty cheap alternative. and I’ve
never been to Tunisia before. I don’t know if I’m going to like it,
it’s going to be extreamly hot, but I’m excited.

“she wants to be loved by someone beautiful
because then her life will be a life and not an endless wishing.
she wants to be loved by someone beautiful
because then her life will be beautiful too.”

——

Oh by the way, small update. I bought a dress on sale. <3
also, I have to do something about my hair >_>

Key to the Universe

rikku — Sun, 01 Aug 2010 15:30:25 +0000

Ok so, when I feel bad, what do I do? I go shopping! … I know I really shouldn’t
but there was a great sale at Indiska, so I bought a lot of things to our new apartment!
So here are some pictures of my new room <3 It’s not done yet though.
I need to spray paint a few things, and hang up the rice lamps in the corner.

Bedspread, carpet, curtains, cushion and colored pillows from Indiska.
Small table with candles from Chilli.
Chinese wall rolls from.. I think they’re from China.

Decorations from Indiska and Lagerhaus.
Green Tea from ICA Liljeholmen!

Table with candles from Chilli (www.chillistore.se)

Jag ligger kvar här, så blir nog allting bra…

rikku — Sat, 31 Jul 2010 22:40:13 +0000

Okay, so, I decided not to go to Malmö this fall after all. I still feel like going somewhere, but I don’t think I’m ready yet. It just occured to me that, if I go away to a place where I don’t know anyone and nobody knows me, sure it would be a new start and all that and it would probably be a great experience, but… if something were to happen, something bad, then I would have to go through that all alone. And I don’t know if I could do that. And that scares me. I hate being scared. I don’t want to, but I’m just too weak to not be scared. I don’t want to hide in my room all day, but I’m too afraid to go outside. Sometimes I hate being a little girl… I hate not being able to defend myself… I’m pathetic.
Jag ligger kvar här, så blir nog allting bra…

Oh well enough complaining. Sorry about that. I thought I’d upload
some pictures from my trip to Japan earlier this year. I miss it so much!

(Sorry Linnea if you’re reading this, I stole your pictures 8)